I hate myself (내가 싫다 )

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I fill up my wallet that you bought for me

I make reservations at the restaurant you used to go to

In the seat you used to sit in, is a different person

With whom I am having an awkward conversation

I tell the funny stories I used to tell you Like a robot,

I say the same things over and over again On the outside, I am smiling but it’s not as great as it looks

Because I keep seeing her as you Not making any sense,

I meet other people Not making any sense, I try to love another person When my love is only you I hate myself for laughing with someone that isn’t you

I stop by that place that you liked I pick out some clothes that you would like And I celebrate a birthday of someone that’s not you

Even I think I am pretty ridiculous Not making any sense, I meet other people Not making any sense, I try to love another person When my love is only you I hate myself for laughing with someone that isn’t you Tears are forming in me but In front of the other person, I pretend to be okay and smile Me, acting like this – me, being so cowardly – I crazily hate myself to the point that I get sick of it Come back to me, I need you Even if they say I’m crazy, I can’t go on without you

My heart says that it can’t forget you I miss you, who still lives in my heart

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